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i've realized there's two sides to me associated with whether i want to hang around and socialize with people or whether i want to stay in my room and just be by myself: which i prefer. i'm not sure whether i socialize or decide to be alone are two different feelings in my brain, or whether i prefer to be alone but want to see every now and then what the fuss with having friends and socializing is. i'm thinking the latter.
there really isn't much more to this matter in terms of things to dwell about, only that i thought it was important to note this because i've felt like this for years.